As I still wait for employment and have been proactive in sending many, many applications, resumes and cover letters, I still have no full time employment.
I have some "irons in the fire" but nothing concrete as yet.
Now a further dilemma has arisen.... My daily devotional for the 04/01/10 read:
Never run before God gives you His direction. If you have the slightest doubt, then He is not guiding. Whenever there is doubt - wait.
Wait for God's timing and He will do it without any heartache or disappointment. When it is a question of the providential will of God, wait for God to move.
OK, so how long should I wait ?
I do have doubts regarding one particular application - what do I do about it ?
Should I continue to be proactive in my approach for "commercial" employment opportunities when I have said that my preference is to work for The Salvation Army in some capacity ?
What happens when financial obligations and God's timing /waiting reach breaking point ?
So many questions left unanswered .......
So as I continue to "wait upon the Lord" for the right employment opportunity, I pray for patience (not my strongest attribute) and strength to continue in the search for God's will in my life.
Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
We will wait upon the Lord
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
Our God, You reign forever
Our hope, our Strong Deliverer
You are the everlasting God
The everlasting God
You do not faint
You won't grow weary
You're the defender of the weak
You comfort those in need
You lift us up on wings like eagles
Isaiah 40 vs 28-31
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Monday, December 14, 2009
Grace Alone
The Preston Salvation Army Band in which I am privileged to be a part of, is well into its 2009 Christmas Carolling schedule.
We are fortunate to be able to play carols in the streets of Preston (Victoria) and in a major Shopping Centre - Northlands.
In the Shopping Centre, the traditional carols mixed with Christmas songs are played and people gather around to listen and then move off to complete the last minute Christmas shopping before it's too late.
We have been able to make contact with people if they have has a spare minute and although it only may be a brief time in the busyness of the season, I can not help wonder if people really stop to take in the real meaning of Christmas.
I pray that we have been able to give some hope to people this Christmas, some small word as to the reason for the season and share some peace in this time of year.
A song that has been playing in my mind (albeit not a Christmas song) speaks of the Grace of God. In Christianity - Grace is defined as "unmerited favour" from God.
Every promise we can make
Every prayer and step of faith
Every difference we can make
Is only by His grace.
Every mountain we will climb
Every ray of hope we shine
Every blessing left behind
Is only by His grace
Grace alone which God supplies
Strength unknown He will provide
Christ in us, our cornerstone
We will go forth in grace alone.
Every soul we long to reach
Every heart we hope to teach
Everywhere we share His peace
Is only by His grace.
Every loving word we say
Every tear we wipe away
Every sorrow turned to praise
Is only by His grace.
Grace alone which God supplies
Strength unknown He will provide
Christ in us, our cornerstone
We will go forth in grace alone.
As we have had a chance again this year to spread the "Good News" of Christmas in our small corner of the world, I pray that people will understand that peace, strength and hope for the future can be found in the real meaning of Christmas, and those of us who profess to be Christians, go out with Christ as our cornerstone to a world in need of hope, peace and love.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Be Still and Know
God knows we are not strong all the time..... Sometimes all we can do is rest in His arms as he takes us through the journey of life... With Him we are safe.
Psalm 46:10a
Be still and know that I am God
Hide me now under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.
I rest my soul in Christ alone
Know his power in quietness and trust
Find rest my soul in Christ alone
Know his power in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
In thee O Lord, do I put my trust.
SACB 73
Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God himself.
In every trouble we should first seek to realize God's presence with us. Only let us enjoy his smile, and we can bear our daily cross with a willing heart for his dear sake.
Psalm 46:10a
Be still and know that I am God
Hide me now under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.
I rest my soul in Christ alone
Know his power in quietness and trust
Find rest my soul in Christ alone
Know his power in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
In thee O Lord, do I put my trust.
SACB 73
Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God himself.
In every trouble we should first seek to realize God's presence with us. Only let us enjoy his smile, and we can bear our daily cross with a willing heart for his dear sake.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
All your anxiety, all your care.
An "old" song/hymn sung at our church hit me out of the blue today. I know it well and have sung/played it over and over for many years.
It sums up a great truth that there is nothing God can not do - all we need to do is bring our worries, concerns, thoughts, hopes, feelings, our past, present and future to God for him to take control where we think we have none.
Is there a heart o'er bound with sorrow?
Is there a life weighed down by care?
Come to the cross, each burden bearing,
All your anxiety, leave it there.
No other friend so keen to help you;
No other friend so quick to hear;
No other place to leave your burden;
No other one to hear your prayer.
Come, then, at once; delay no longer;
Heed his entreaty, kind and sweet;
You need not fear a disappointment;
You shall find peace at the mercy seat.
All your anxiety, all your care,
Bring to the mercy seat, leave it there,
Never a burden he cannot bear,
Never a friend like Jesus.
Edward Henry Joy SASB 246
With Christ's peace, we have no need to fear the present or the future. If your life is full of stress, allow the Holy Spirit to fill you with Christ's Peace.
It sums up a great truth that there is nothing God can not do - all we need to do is bring our worries, concerns, thoughts, hopes, feelings, our past, present and future to God for him to take control where we think we have none.
Is there a heart o'er bound with sorrow?
Is there a life weighed down by care?
Come to the cross, each burden bearing,
All your anxiety, leave it there.
No other friend so keen to help you;
No other friend so quick to hear;
No other place to leave your burden;
No other one to hear your prayer.
Come, then, at once; delay no longer;
Heed his entreaty, kind and sweet;
You need not fear a disappointment;
You shall find peace at the mercy seat.
All your anxiety, all your care,
Bring to the mercy seat, leave it there,
Never a burden he cannot bear,
Never a friend like Jesus.
Edward Henry Joy SASB 246
With Christ's peace, we have no need to fear the present or the future. If your life is full of stress, allow the Holy Spirit to fill you with Christ's Peace.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
How to handle rejection
Tonight as I sit typing by candle light (not to save power, but seeking some quite, uninterrupted solitude) I reflect on the past few days.
I seem to be focused on the past and dwelling on the "poor" results and rejection since my redundancy back almost 4 weeks ago.
I have reflected on what service I can do for God, in what areas, and also how can I better serve thee Lord ?
I have commented on stress and now know that it is not only effecting me, but Nat as well. Anxiety for both of us is playing a horrible part in our lives and we are only 4 weeks in. I hesitate to comment but, the devil is having a field day - or so it seems - with both of us at present.
I have been trying to make sense in everything that has happened over the past 18 months - the reasons why we are where we are at today - I have no answers !
I was reminded this week that I made a "half hearted" decision to "serve" in some capacity within the Salvation Army and whilst there may be still a slim chance, I am not sure how, what, where or when. It's easy to sit back and say "because I'm a Salvo - you should employ me", but how committed to God am I ? My commitment to the Salvation Army has been very strong - even through some "interesting" times several years ago, but I never stopped going and I never ceased my commitment to the Salvation Army.
See the problem !!
Where is my commitment to God ? Have I really had a "real"relationship with him ? Have I given up my all to follow - just to do my Masters will ? Probably not.
My daily readings have been a great help through out the past several months.
"in every trouble we should first seek to realize Gods presence with us. Only let us enjoy his smile and we can bear our daily cross with a willing heart for his dear sake"
How easy it is to pass the blame onto God and accuse him of letting us down. I have done this many times and even over the past several months have questions God's involvement in my life.
"Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God himself.
Well, tonight will require some time on my knees to reassess my relationship with God. I'm not expecting that God will grant my every want, but I will need some reassurance that he will provide all my (and Nat, Imogen, Maddison and Willow's) needs.
Lord I am praying for you to meet my need and I will continue to pray for some service advice too..
Strength for my weakness, Lord, impart;
Sight for my blindness give to me;
Faith for my doubting, Lord, I would crave,
That I may serve thee worthily.
Here at the cross at this sacred hour,
Here at the source of reviving power,
Helpless indeed, I come with my need;
Lord, for thy service, fit me I plead.
Bramwell Coles SASB 488
I seem to be focused on the past and dwelling on the "poor" results and rejection since my redundancy back almost 4 weeks ago.
I have reflected on what service I can do for God, in what areas, and also how can I better serve thee Lord ?
I have commented on stress and now know that it is not only effecting me, but Nat as well. Anxiety for both of us is playing a horrible part in our lives and we are only 4 weeks in. I hesitate to comment but, the devil is having a field day - or so it seems - with both of us at present.
I have been trying to make sense in everything that has happened over the past 18 months - the reasons why we are where we are at today - I have no answers !
I was reminded this week that I made a "half hearted" decision to "serve" in some capacity within the Salvation Army and whilst there may be still a slim chance, I am not sure how, what, where or when. It's easy to sit back and say "because I'm a Salvo - you should employ me", but how committed to God am I ? My commitment to the Salvation Army has been very strong - even through some "interesting" times several years ago, but I never stopped going and I never ceased my commitment to the Salvation Army.
See the problem !!
Where is my commitment to God ? Have I really had a "real"relationship with him ? Have I given up my all to follow - just to do my Masters will ? Probably not.
My daily readings have been a great help through out the past several months.
"in every trouble we should first seek to realize Gods presence with us. Only let us enjoy his smile and we can bear our daily cross with a willing heart for his dear sake"
How easy it is to pass the blame onto God and accuse him of letting us down. I have done this many times and even over the past several months have questions God's involvement in my life.
"Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God himself.
Well, tonight will require some time on my knees to reassess my relationship with God. I'm not expecting that God will grant my every want, but I will need some reassurance that he will provide all my (and Nat, Imogen, Maddison and Willow's) needs.
Lord I am praying for you to meet my need and I will continue to pray for some service advice too..
Strength for my weakness, Lord, impart;
Sight for my blindness give to me;
Faith for my doubting, Lord, I would crave,
That I may serve thee worthily.
Here at the cross at this sacred hour,
Here at the source of reviving power,
Helpless indeed, I come with my need;
Lord, for thy service, fit me I plead.
Bramwell Coles SASB 488
Friday, December 4, 2009
Immanuel - God with us
Today I completed my interview with a division of the Salvation Army and now I wait patiently for the outcome.
After the interview I met with friends, Lt. Cols Peter and Jenny Walker and explained my situation as I had briefly discussed this with Peter on Sunday afternoon. On the way, out Peter explained that not matter what happens - God is with us (me) - through all circumstances of life and what ever life "throws at us".
At this Christmas time, we often sing about Immanuel - God with us, and it was a timely reminder to me that no matter where I am in life's journey God is always there.
I make it difficult for him to be around me at times as I "wander" though life - sometimes aimlessly - but as I previously Blogged - He's always been faithful to me.
As I sit and enter this Blog, I wonder whether I have done enough time getting serious with my choices and serious with letting God have is way with my future - sure I have prayed, read my devotions, put my circumstances to Him and even stepped out in commitment to say - here am I my Lord send me. But I put restrictions on this and said I want to serve only in a business capacity using my current skills and knowledge base for work He appoints me to do - not much of a pledge in hindsight, but, having an application in for a significant role within the Salvation Army, I thought this would be enough.
Now, as doubts and anxiety start to surface, I again find myself looking for answers.
My devotions for Nov 30th read:
The band of disciples would undergo severe testing before they were transformed from hesitant followers to dynamic leaders. You may have made big mistakes in your life, committed sins you're ashamed to remember. Yet nothing is beyond Jesus' forgiveness. He can help you become the person he wants you to become, but you must allow him to forgive you and work in your life. He did this for these disciples - and they changed the world.
Well after 3 weeks of enforced holidays - hesitation is setting in - What if these interviews turn into no full time employment ? Where will this leave me (us) after Christmas ?
I need to be constantly stirred about my Faith journey and understand that;
"Faith may take you where you least expect it, but have faith that you are exactly where you are supposed to be."
I'm not sure that unemployed with a wife and 3 children to support is where I'm "supposed to be" and hence the struggle with where I'm at today and what the future holds for us - as time marches on, bills start to mount up and job prospect "dry up" (hopefully only for this Christmas period) - now comes the true test of faith.
"Faith is just a decision that we make to trust God and not worry. It's a small thing in our hands, but when we hold the key of faith, God can open many doors"
After the interview I met with friends, Lt. Cols Peter and Jenny Walker and explained my situation as I had briefly discussed this with Peter on Sunday afternoon. On the way, out Peter explained that not matter what happens - God is with us (me) - through all circumstances of life and what ever life "throws at us".
At this Christmas time, we often sing about Immanuel - God with us, and it was a timely reminder to me that no matter where I am in life's journey God is always there.
I make it difficult for him to be around me at times as I "wander" though life - sometimes aimlessly - but as I previously Blogged - He's always been faithful to me.
As I sit and enter this Blog, I wonder whether I have done enough time getting serious with my choices and serious with letting God have is way with my future - sure I have prayed, read my devotions, put my circumstances to Him and even stepped out in commitment to say - here am I my Lord send me. But I put restrictions on this and said I want to serve only in a business capacity using my current skills and knowledge base for work He appoints me to do - not much of a pledge in hindsight, but, having an application in for a significant role within the Salvation Army, I thought this would be enough.
Now, as doubts and anxiety start to surface, I again find myself looking for answers.
My devotions for Nov 30th read:
The band of disciples would undergo severe testing before they were transformed from hesitant followers to dynamic leaders. You may have made big mistakes in your life, committed sins you're ashamed to remember. Yet nothing is beyond Jesus' forgiveness. He can help you become the person he wants you to become, but you must allow him to forgive you and work in your life. He did this for these disciples - and they changed the world.
Well after 3 weeks of enforced holidays - hesitation is setting in - What if these interviews turn into no full time employment ? Where will this leave me (us) after Christmas ?
I need to be constantly stirred about my Faith journey and understand that;
"Faith may take you where you least expect it, but have faith that you are exactly where you are supposed to be."
I'm not sure that unemployed with a wife and 3 children to support is where I'm "supposed to be" and hence the struggle with where I'm at today and what the future holds for us - as time marches on, bills start to mount up and job prospect "dry up" (hopefully only for this Christmas period) - now comes the true test of faith.
"Faith is just a decision that we make to trust God and not worry. It's a small thing in our hands, but when we hold the key of faith, God can open many doors"
Monday, November 30, 2009
All Fired Up !!
There is a saying - "All dressed up with no place to go", well I'm All Fired Up with no place to go (yet).
Having made a conscious decision to want to do something better for my life and the lives of others, I now have to wait patiently for the right "fit" for the future.
I was very interested to hear our Territorial Leader (for the Salvation Army) put out the "call" for people to work for the Army in varying capacities. Usually it is a call for Officership (Ministers), but this year was different for me and as my circumstances and focus have changed over the past several weeks and months - I wait with anticipation for what God's plan is for the future - not only myself, but of my family too.
A favourite (secular) song from an up and coming TV show, GLEE (sad I know) reads;
What do you say to taking chances ?
What do you say to jumping off the edge ?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say ?
I know it's a long shot, but again it makes me wonder that what is jumping off the edge of my comfort zone will bring - not knowing if there is solid ground below or a hand to hold.
There are so many references regarding Christ the Solid Rock and How Firm a Foundation in the bible and in the songs we sing each Sunday that it is impossible not to know that looking back over the past, albeit sometime tough, we (Nat and I) have not strayed too far from this truth. We stepped out several years ago when we moved to North Queensland and he was always with us when we were so far from home. Moving back to Tassie 8 years ago was also a move that, I believe, was a part of Gods plan for us and, with the move to Melbourne for family medical reasons 18 months ago, I can only trust that God has got it all worked out.
Words that have been used for Vocal with a Brass accompaniment - "He's always been faithful" sums up this Blog for today.
Morning by morning I wake up to find
The power and comfort of Gods hand in mine
Season by season I watch him amazed
In awe of the mystery of his perfect ways
All I have need of, his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me
I can't remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can't remember one single regret
In serving God only and trusting his hand
All I have need of, his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me
This is my anthem, this is my song
The theme of the story I've heard for so long
God has been faithful, he will be again
His loving compassion it knows no end
All I have need of his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me.
I am looking forward with anticipation and some hesitation this week as my patience / endurance is tested yet again - with some more interviews in the latter part of the week.
I pray for guidance and wisdom to know what the (right) path is for my journey, and strength to "Let Go and Let God".
Having made a conscious decision to want to do something better for my life and the lives of others, I now have to wait patiently for the right "fit" for the future.
I was very interested to hear our Territorial Leader (for the Salvation Army) put out the "call" for people to work for the Army in varying capacities. Usually it is a call for Officership (Ministers), but this year was different for me and as my circumstances and focus have changed over the past several weeks and months - I wait with anticipation for what God's plan is for the future - not only myself, but of my family too.
A favourite (secular) song from an up and coming TV show, GLEE (sad I know) reads;
What do you say to taking chances ?
What do you say to jumping off the edge ?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay
What do you say ?
I know it's a long shot, but again it makes me wonder that what is jumping off the edge of my comfort zone will bring - not knowing if there is solid ground below or a hand to hold.
There are so many references regarding Christ the Solid Rock and How Firm a Foundation in the bible and in the songs we sing each Sunday that it is impossible not to know that looking back over the past, albeit sometime tough, we (Nat and I) have not strayed too far from this truth. We stepped out several years ago when we moved to North Queensland and he was always with us when we were so far from home. Moving back to Tassie 8 years ago was also a move that, I believe, was a part of Gods plan for us and, with the move to Melbourne for family medical reasons 18 months ago, I can only trust that God has got it all worked out.
Words that have been used for Vocal with a Brass accompaniment - "He's always been faithful" sums up this Blog for today.
Morning by morning I wake up to find
The power and comfort of Gods hand in mine
Season by season I watch him amazed
In awe of the mystery of his perfect ways
All I have need of, his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me
I can't remember a trial or a pain
He did not recycle to bring me gain
I can't remember one single regret
In serving God only and trusting his hand
All I have need of, his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me
This is my anthem, this is my song
The theme of the story I've heard for so long
God has been faithful, he will be again
His loving compassion it knows no end
All I have need of his hand will provide
He's always been faithful to me.
I am looking forward with anticipation and some hesitation this week as my patience / endurance is tested yet again - with some more interviews in the latter part of the week.
I pray for guidance and wisdom to know what the (right) path is for my journey, and strength to "Let Go and Let God".
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